my love…

“…my pain, my torment, my frustration and anger…my joy – my love.”

-Reiner Ebert.

#1. This was my first oil painting done in early 2017…I had been teaching myself how to paint during the 6 months prior, by reading books and taking notes and by watching you-tube videos of painters that I admired……Although at this stage, it is clear that I need way more improvement in my technique…I was happy with the overall composition and encouraged to continue painting, by the way I had successfully implied the presence of clothing hanging over the chair, with the gesture of a few simple brushstrokes…It was at that moment I knew, that if I stuck with it, I could become an artist.

#2. My wife has awesome bendy elbows! – You really have to see them up close to fully appreciate them!…I’m happy with the outcome of my second oil painting. I was focusing on the accuracy of the drawing. It was a pretty ambitious task – However, I believe that the only way to improve quickly, is to always test yourself and accept a challenge! – Set your goals high! – Then that way, even if you only make it halfway there, you will still arrive at a very good level!……I don’t use any under drawings in my artwork – I simply put my brush to the canvas and start painting…..My goal is to train my eye the same way I trained myself not to use any packing-clamps to aid me in the packing of my parachute while B.A.S.E-jumping. – As it is with both pursuits, this will allow me to have more confidence and freedom in the future!

#3. I was trying to do something different here. After painting ‘Puppies’ – Which was quite a light and airy painting, I really wanted to see if I could be successful with a dim light source….At the time, all I had to use was Christmas tree lights. – I think it works…I can definitely see my wife’s eyes shining through!

#6. I wanted to try to use a limited pallet, so I thought this would be a good exercise…It was a quick sketch and fun to do!…I like the time-less quality – Although perhaps they didn’t have those type of bikinis back then??…..Anyway,…you get what I mean? – By the way…My wife’s puppies are the same size in real life! – It’s just the way the perspective is in the painting.

#15. Another quick study of my beautiful wife… I always love painting her!…When I fell in love with her for the first time, she was facing away from me – And softly humming a tune to herself…I remember standing there, silently watching for a while…From that moment on, I was captivated by her!

#21. Hey there ‘lil sis……This painting belongs to you!……Have I ever told you how beautiful I think you are!??….I wish I could have been there, growing up – To have been a proper brother for you!……I’m so very proud of everything you’ve accomplished with your life!…And you, being there for mum on your own. ……Y’know, we all make mistakes! – I know I do!…I’m the kind of man who blows up balloons until they burst!……Sometimes we pay dearly for them -Sometimes we don’t. ……Never forget!…You have two beautiful kids -Who need every bit of you!……Girl!-Stay in the fight!!!

#22. Well F**k-a-doodle-do!……This painting took a long time to finish!….It’s amazing how much effort it takes to make a painting look like it took no effort at all!…..I started this painting of my cousins girl, Ughaan, in the second week of February…All was going well – And on day five I was already thinking I might be finished in a couple more days – I was happy about this because usually I finish a painting this size in nine days and that would mean I was getting quicker….I had completed the arms and the shirt and was working simultaneously on the denim jacket and face….But then out of no-where….I was standing in front of my easel, when suddenly and without warning, I collapsed on the floor! – Literally!!… I was completely and utterly f****d!!! ……That’s never happened to me before!!….I’ve worked physically hard, all my life and never been beat!….. But this was different… You see, since mid December 2021, until mid February 2022, I had painted for a total of 36 days and I was mentally drained. My brain just gave up! ……I couldn’t even manage to clean my brushes that day. It took me two months to recharge properly before I could even look in the direction of my easel again….I had to scrub out the work I already did on the jacket and face and start over. But, as it turns out – Being that f****d helped me get to the next level! – ‘Cos when I finally picked up my brushes again, – I still didn’t have enough energy to maintain the same concentration and focus I usually have……And this forced me to give less of a f**k!- Not that I wasn’t caring about my work!- I always strive for perfection when I paint….But this time I simply couldn’t!….So, I decided to just experiment and go with the flow….let it evolve by itself uninhibited…… As a result, my work became more expressive!……You can’t just hang out by the clit all day long!- Sometimes you just gotta take a deep breath, put your head down – Make that pointy shape with your tongue…Then stick it in as far as it can go!…And just see what happens!

#25. Ok- So I just had to paint this one!- I love the attitude and all the bling…It gives me something challenging to paint!…But f**k-me!…Again!!…Man!…Day one, all was going good…Got the shirt done…But then I couldn’t get to sleep that night- My mind was just going round-and-f*****g-round all night long! – Finally, fell asleep around 4am…Then woke up at 9 to continue painting…This s**t kept going on every night until I finished the painting…It was almost a full week of torture!…I’m absolutely f****d now!….Must have been that f*****g weeeed I smoked last week!….I’m just glad it worked out!

#29. I want you meet Taahira. She’s my cousin……And she’s a really wonderful person!!…As beautiful on the inside as she is on the outside!!…I was lucky enough to spend a week with her last month, getting to know her better as she decided to come visit me before she went back to South Africa after spending a few months on modelling assignments in London, Amsterdam and Turkey…Geez!- she’s all grown up now!…It only seems like yesterday when she was a tiny little thing crawling all over my ex wife…Man!- Time sure does fly!- And yes!- I did feel fucking old hanging around with a 24 year old (Only because she kept on reminding me!)…But luckily she’s got a good head on her shoulders and is a thinker like me…So our conversations were very stimulating and by the end of the week I was relieved to feel much more assured that she will be safe and able to take care of herself as she ventures on her journey in life,- Jet-setting all over the world while pursuing her modelling career!…Taahira – I miss all my family! …Please give them all a big hug for me!!…And thanks so much for the visit!!…Hey! Always remember! – You came from the right stock! – And you’ve been brought up the right way!…And you’ve got everything it takes to actually make it in this world!!…I have complete and utter faith in you!! – You go get ’em girl!!!……Oh!- And remember what you promised me!! – You were going to find me a new wife!! … I’ll hold you to that!!….Now, O.K…So we agree that 24 is a bit young for me…But I think 27 is O.K…Practically 30 huh!…So, when you start hanging around 27 year old models…Come back for another visit!!… – Let me give you my numbers real quick….. No-one bigger than 89:64:101(cm)…And she’s gotta be adventurous in bed and at least as intelligent as you are O.K!.. Oh!!! – And she’s gotta be a real f*****g woman as well!!! – I don’t want to have to deal with any ‘origami penises’ O.K!!…..Thanks cuzz!!

#30. This painting is for a dear friend I really care about. It’s my way of saying sorry!! I can be a f*****g dick sometimes!…When I get a boner…My dick gets so big…I trip myself up with it….I should cut the damn thing off!….Save me a lot of trouble. – I painted this from a photo she took and sent me. I fell in love with it and knew it would make a great painting. I wanted her to know….That feeling you sometimes get inside….Well, hold on girl…There IS something beyond nothingness!

“Every bush is a flame, every rock a fountain of water, every star a pillar of fire and every cloud -the one that leads to God”

-Massalian.